I am more than _____.  I am this and_____.

What I am is growth.  I’m a garden of possibility….some parts of me are dormant, some parts are weeds, some of me needs pruning. Some of me needs watering, digging up, replanting. Some of me is flourishing and vibrant with fragrance.

These are thoughts I have all the time. The thoughts between the ones I portray online or say out loud.

I am so much more than what I do hear in this space.  I like people and puppies.  Special K cereal (with strawberries) is my favorite. I don’t love pimento cheese and am trying to learn to be a runner. I love to paint but I also love to write and sing and dance and act and take photos of my children and flowers and the whiskers on a cat. I am not afraid to tear down a wall with a sledgehammer by myself but I am afraid of cockroaches. I would like to write a book.

I try to do morning pages a la Julia Cameron.  The Artist’s Way is a workbook I needed and wished I had written myself.  Have you read it? It’s spiritual and encouraging and amazing that someone wrote that book for me.  For me! For you!  For all of us! It is life changing. I have been lax at doing the work of morning pages for several months and picked it back up this week.  I don’t normally go back and read what I’ve written in previous entries but today something caught my eye.  I had written some worried anxious thought and then I wrote:

“But what if this right now is really the sweet life?”

I think it is.  I think today is the sweetest life.  Today when sometimes parenting is hard and my painting isn’t working.  When bills stack up and the dogs are making a mess of the backyard.  Laundry piles up, we lose contact with friends. We check the news and it hurts.

Awake my soul to the sweetest life that is today.  Help me ruffle my kids hair and smile at them tenderly.  Help me to cheer my neighbor and the stranger.

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We are all of us this… AND so much more.

xoxo

Bethany