So, I guess it’s time for my annual blog post. ha.
I’ve struggled with this blog and what to do with my space here. When I first started writing at an old typepad address, my children were babies and I had time to sit. I sat during their naps and late at night and wrote. I so desperately wanted to “find myself” (whatever that means) and thought since everyone was starting a blog, I should too. All of the cool kids were jumping on the bandwagon and looked so happy doing it! They were fulfilled! They were going places!
Fast forward around 10 years.
I don’t have the time to sit and write like I once did. As a mom of three busy kids, I am always running. This blog barely registers as a blip on my radar. Besides, I realized I didn’t really care what the cool kids were doing because I now know all that work to be “present” was totally not fun. Nevertheless, the time came to let it expire or renew my hosting account. It has been a looming decision in my brain.
“As a photographer, it is important to have a presence” (according to someone who made up this rule, I guess). And it’s important to “branch out” and be seen as many places as possible! Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, Linkedin, Newsletters, etc.! You also must post at least once a day. You must have engaging content that is designed well. You must link your content all throughout the web and become experts at SEO so Google will like you. You must do this all day everyday. If you don’t do these things your audience will get bored! And then you won’t have any clients and then you’ll be a failure!!!”
I listened to all of this for a long time and really tried. Tried so hard to be all of those things. All it made me was tired, NOT successful. So, I tried a little less and this blog was on the chopping block. I keep getting emails of doom from the hosting companies that it will expire soon, so this morning I decided to renew this site for one more year and see what happens. Maybe I’ll find some time to sit in the cool of the morning after I take the kids to school when everything is quiet. Maybe I’ll share less client work and more personal work. Maybe I’ll even share UNEDITED photos (the horror!!) Maybe I won’t post again until next year. In thinking of letting my site expire, I realized I like having a space to record. Like an old friend who has slipped out of touch, only to be found again.
I’m not going to stress about the reachability of this post. Or how many hits I get. No one will probably see it anyway. Everyone is busy living…
And I’m totally ok with that because I am too.