Yes I am here. I am probably more here than I’ve been in a while and I think that has alot to do with stepping back and away from all things “business.” I’ve been painting furniture, planting flowers, cooking yummy food, going on spontaneous road trips, curling my daughter’s hair, washing muddy feet, playing board games, reading good books, drinking wonderful coffee, spending time in the Word, meeting with fun friends….and on and on and on. I’ve relaxed and had mornings to myself instead of dedicated to shoots…or to editing. I put down my camera and looked life in the face. I wanted to see what it looked like.
It is beautiful…..did you know?
My business has turned itself inside out and upside down. I used to constantly compare myself, never measuring up to the competition. They were busier, had better clients, made more money, and did it in cuter shoes. And they didn’t seem to fall, or stumble, or even trip. They seemed so happy in this world of look at me and how busy I am! Look at how well I can handle all of it. Look at my trendy and cool vibe! My togetherness! Even if none of those things were true, I realized I was miserable and so I must be missing something…surely? I wasn’t happy competing and I definitely wasn’t handling it. I had no balance, not even a smidge.
So. Less busy. That’s what I did. I stepped away from everything for almost three months. I haven’t blogged (obviously), I haven’t posted many sessions, I haven’t even looked at Pinterest. (well…..not really…) I have been living more. Period.
I’m less busy by choice, but more grateful as a result. I discovered that I cannot capture life if I do not seek it for myself. And that’s kind of amazing, ya know?
“But seek first the Kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” ~ Matthew 6:33